I have had a week or so, feeling a little weird and not really knowing why. I am good when I am with clients, running workshops or at work but outside of that something has been completely off track. You know that feeling when you are watching an ad and find yourself tearing up – like a button has been pushed and touches something in you when they are advertising shampoo!. Or when you pop into IKEA and find yourself walking around in a daze, losing two hours and not really knowing what you’ve been doing. (luckily I did come out with what I went in for) Or that sense that know that you need to do but you can’t get your shizzle together and the day passes by.
For me these are all indicators that something’s going on. What ever the reasons its terrible feeling like you are not connected to yourself – it is like a distance is between you and everything around you. It’s a big fat warning that something has to change or you are going down the gurgler.
On Thursday something unusual happened. I had a networking coffee catch up with some lovely ladies and had planned to sit at the café and work for a while before coming home and knocking off a few more things. I was driving along the esplanade, it was a cracker of a day – the sky was a bright blue without a cloud in sight, the water was a beautiful calm and in an instant my plans changed. I am not normally one to just take the afternoon off but geez I am so glad I did. I just drove down the coast and sat at different points looking at the sea, soaking in the beauty, fresh air and reflecting upon life. I soaked in the sea for an hour or so and it was so refreshing and rejuvenating. it was like all of the invisible things that were weighing me down were exfoliated by the saltiness and just washed away with the waves. It was pretty cool just floating in the water hearing the water swirl around me and feeling the sun on my face. The time out helped my brain recover from the massive ‘shoulds’ ‘need tos’ ‘wants’ or ‘have tos’ and actually bought back some clarity rather than being in an overwhelming fog of avoidance.
A few things came to mind when I was on this rebellious self care afternoon. I truly believe that I am doing what I was born to do, I totally and utterly love art therapy and I feel on fire when I am in the zone, like I could do it 24/7. But, and that’s a big BUT, I need to practice what I preach more – I am bloody useless to everyone I work with if I don’t look after myself outside of the therapy space. How the hell can I hold the space, time and energy for everyone else if I don’t take the time to do the same for myself.
So I guess that’s my question for this edition of Ignite Life – what are you doing to be the best you can be? If you are disconnected from yourself and those around you, what do you need to do to for that to be different? For me, a few hours of having some space, being in nature, washing away all the crappy stuff was just the ticket and nourished me more than ticking something off my list (and lets face it I probably wouldn’t have one it anyway). And now I can do those things that I want to do with a clearer connection to my purpose.
What are some of the things that help you reconnect to you?
The funny thing is that my sign off even makes reference to it…
Take care of you!